*dusts the cobwebs off the lj*

Holy. Freaking. Crow.

Haven't been here in a while.

I'm writing this down here because I had some time where I wasn't doing anything so my brain decided to think about my recent past. Nothing very pleasing, I'm sad to say :(

I remembered that I was far more naiive then I thought throughout the whole Derek situation, and I found out that just because I choose to believe the best in most people doesn't mean they chose to believe the best in me : /

I am proud of one thing though. There was a guy I was interested in not too far back, and I didn't pursue anything because my 'friends' were kind enough to tell me he was 'out of my league"... And I was dumb enough to think that something as trivial as "leagues" for people existed. Point is, I'm proud of myself because after a MONTH of believing this nonsensical hogwash I decided to learn the basic functions of Hungarian grammar and write him a note in his native language XD I put the ball in his court, and said "There!!! No matter WHAT you do with it I can leave with my conscience clear because I was a cool enough chick to learn the language you spoke so that we could communicate better :D If you can't see how freaking cool that is because I am a chubby, clumsy, undeniably massive dork, then My good Sir, you can move back to Hungary for all I care ^_^"

Granted that's not anything what the note said, but I'm still very happy about it ^_^

I've also been thinking that once my lease is up I may move further up north. My dad lives in Seattle, so he could help me find a place maybe, and I could go back to College. Only problem there is I want to find something more financially apropriate then going for a degree in Philosophy. We shall seee......

Handsome Rob is doing well!! (the volvo).

I'm just rambling. We've gotten free HBO and cinemax this weekend so I've been vegetating watching movies like 'Knocked Up" and "Fight Club" a lot.

I think things are looking up :) I've got a clean slate ahead of me and not other worries than finding a job in time to pay next month's Rent.

Wish me luck I suppose :)
Hope all of you in the void are well
<3